Where The Self Meets

A brief introduction…

Somewhere between the core being and the outer acting agent, is a space of processing. A place where the distance grows and shrinks, dependent on the individual’s willingness to know themselves. Specificities of place in this space are held by the unconscious, compelling the individual. Or, encouraging them not to explore. Somewhere in between the being and the agent, is the becoming.

The complexities of an individual’s psyche are not only developed by the individual themselves, but also by the previous existence of its consciousness, and the form in which it takes now. While individuals can mold themselves, the existence of the “self” stems from billions of years of pre-existing energy. Laws of thermodynamics state that energy cannot be created nor destroyed, it can only change from one form to another. Within each individual, is energy. A consciousness that flows through recycled states, in constant conversion of intake and utilization. The energy each person carries is the same energy since the beginning of the universe. Consciousness is a form of energy that develops the psyche of the individual. This relationship between an individual and it’s consciousness is bi-directional, impacting each other.

Having an awareness of the self is an inevitable result of a developed psyche. Through the gained understanding of an individual’s core, one may find the inescapable separation between the self and the agent. Agency over one’s life stems from the combined expression of the individual, both the being and the agent. In previous pieces, I have described this as the “core” and the “outer” self. Where the core serves to be the innate self, the guidance system of the outer self. The outer self is therefore the acting being. Without access to the core self, the acting self will continue to behave with no regards for the core. Ultimately, action that is not driven by intention will harm the psyche.

Psyche is the totality of the individual’s existence. It is the sense and reasoning, the decision and action. Aims of the psyche are to exist in the state of the individual without any meaning attached to the state. Meaning becomes attached to the psyche; psyche does not attach meaning to itself. Nonetheless, where one chooses to exist in the layers of their psyche can impact the psyche itself.  The psyche is the pure existence of the being within the context of the consciousness of the self. Harm to the psyche is done through actions not aligned with the self’s consciousness. Alignment through every part of the self is unique to each individual. Though the interconnectedness of consciousness passes through everyone, reclaimed through time, the impact of the energy will shape an individual in different ways. The energy’s impact exists in a state of entropy between the agent and the self.

Entropic State

A degree of uncertainty, will always be certain, in the space between intention and action, the being and the agent. In this space, lies possibility for impact. A space where energy can introduce variables unaccounted for. We may view this as the unconscious self. As the conscious self is certain and the unconscious self is uncertain. This space is the entropic state of the individual. It may be navigated through the conscious being; however, the unconscious will still reside.

Collaborating with the unconscious can bring a bout of uncertainty to decision. Through an understanding of the core, certainty can be found to guide intention. This intention can then be passed to the agent, where the agent may find clarity in choice. Allowance for the unconscious to play a role in the self, gives way for unknown intention to bring false clarity to the individual. States of being arise that will not always be clear for the individual to understand. Levels of complexity come with levels of uncertainty.

Expansion of the individual will inevitably expand both uncertainty and certainty. The layers of this will continue to build upon themselves. Beneath the core will live another layer of the unconscious. The more conscious one becomes of the layers of unconscious there are, the more the layers are to added to the self. Consequently, becoming a continuous cycle of informed and uninformed. The uniformed will remain unconscious, and once the conscious is informed, a new layer will build.

Between & Becoming 

To further break down the individual’s randomized state, we may use this statement: consciousness of agency. Where each word belongs to a point along the individual’s path. Consciousness is the point of being. The source enacting the agent. Agency is the receiver of the conscious energy, without source there would be no agent. Of serves to be the unconscious state that glues together the inner and outer worlds. A certain amount of randomness is necessary to bring about the need for decision in the inner world. When the being has no need for decision, the agent will struggle to reflect their intentions. Possibly, executing with complete unawareness of their intentions. Instead, the actions of the agents will be driven by the unconscious.

In this space, is where the two worlds of the self will meet. The innermost self of intention and the outer most self of reflection. When both of these self’s meet, the two can find an agreement. Leaves of a tree will grow towards the sun to bring in nutrients. An agent should do with the intention of anthropomorphizing it’s inner being. This is the agreement that unifies the psyche, and builds trust within the self. Where the inner can trust that the outer will act in alignment with the being, and the outer can trust that the inner is providing the clarity necessary for decision. Wars of the mind break out when the agent goes rogue. The space of the becoming serves to align the agent with its consciousness. One who can meet themself in this space, is an individual in the state of becoming.

The becoming individual is one who puts in effort to know themselves. In attempts to understand oneself, there will be finding, revelation, and unearthing. With this, will come surprise, joy, and discomfort. Uncertainty does not hold it’s primary residency in the exterior, it will also lodge itself in the interior. Places that exist in the space of the becoming, are to be explored with the individual’s best discretion, as it should be explored with conscious intention. In this space, is the surrender of the being and the agent. Becoming is the acceptance of the self.

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